First of all, I was flipping through my old blog, because that’s what you do when you don’t want to go back into the 101 degree heat to ride your bike the the grocery store. No matter what persona you think you project onto the internet, you just project yourself, so of course reading through two-year-old entries makes me be all like, “Dude, that is a lot of feelings” and “Oh god, don’t eat that cake, you are allergic to, like, three things in it and you don’t even know!!!” But I found this list, and I still stand behind it 100%:
What five things would you do if you were a billionaire? 1. Something to atone for having that much money 2. build and design the perfect house, then throw a housewarming party and invite M.I.A. and Prince to perform 3. invest in newfangled energy sources 4. get two more dogs 5. have all my shoes made by hand so they would fit!
Today, the guy at the coffee shop was like, “Hey, I have been seeing you around here a lot lately,” and I was all like, “I just moved to Austin!” My house lacks the internet, so I chill out here for a few hours every afternoon. Soon, things will change. The house will have internet. School will start. My classes are all in the evening, but I’m sure that having that tiny bit of structure will constrict my lazy days as well. I’m pretty sure that’s for the best. But I have to say, having day after day roll out before me with nothing to do but read, write, and shuttle between various places offering air conditioning has been exquisite. Especially because just a few months ago everything was tight, unforgiving clockwork, bus schedules, train schedules, work on time (ha), initial and date everything I wrote down at work, see this person Tuesday, that appointment Thursday, let the dog out, go to bed on time. I always knew what time it was. Where I was. I have been tempted to freak out at the loss of my triangulation, but Olga reminded me that that’s ridiculous. I’m in flux, yet again. I might as well enjoy myself.